Surviving Life - Set Phases to Stun Lyrics

Sunny day underway
Everything is going great
Rainy day, sudden change
Everything is turning gray
A chemical reaction to nothing in particular
I'm in tip-top shape
Dreaming of a speeding train
Coming to take my breath away

I wake up every single day and avoid my own reflection
I can't help but to think if I were better-looking I would have more friends
And if I had more friends I wouldn't have to be so lonely
But people make me nervous, people make me feel so ugly
And I don't think they'd understand just how broken I think I am
Or how it feels to be in constant contact with someone you can't stand
I'll just try to make them laugh despite life being like a bad joke for me
But I really just want this to van Gogh away

I hate myself and I don't know why
I don't wanna live anymore, but I don't wanna die

I'm the thorn in my own side
The chip on my own shoulder
I thought when I got older
These feelings would subside
But my life feels like a pencil with erasers at both ends

I hate myself and I don't know why
I don't wanna live anymore, but I don't wanna die
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself, but I don't wanna die