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I've been having a hard time lately
Convincing myself I didn't waste my youth
Cashing in the years to walk around in shoes I didn't choose
And I feel like a stranger in my own skin
Can't cross the gap between who I am and where I've been
And these bags under my eyes
Are the only things I recognize these days
It doesn't matter how old I get
I'm only 17 inside my head
Cuz right now I feel a little nervous
Yeah, right now I think I'm a mess
Right now everything's changing
And nothing makes sense
I've been having a hard time lately
Convincing myself this isn't just a bad dream
30 years of regrets stuck on repeat
And I feel like a stranger in my own skin
Lived this lie for so long, do I even know who I really am
It doesn't matter how old I get
I'm only 17 inside my head
Cuz right now I feel a little nervous
Yeah, right now I think I'm a mess
Right now everything's changing
And nothing makes sense
Right now, I feel a little nervous
Yeah, right now I'm a f*cking mess
Right now everything's changing
It doesn't matter how old I get
I'll always be that same kid inside my head
Right now, maybe I'm a nervous wreck
Right now, how did I get here, feeling down and out
But its not over yet
