Sylvia Haynes - The Heavy Empty Lyrics

She asked me if I wanted to be used
I said "yes, I do, but only by you"
She told me I looked easily bruised,
Easily cracked, and broken in two

Now I am full of The Heavy Empty

Emasculate me, make me feel whole
Fill the hole in my metaphor
Eat me alive on the kitchen floor
Let flowers bloom from the blood and gore
Palpitating organ tissue
Scalpel intended for my misuse
Make me more than I'm used to
Make it so I'll always miss you
Make it so I'll never miss you
Make it so I don't care whats true
Make it so I can only be you
Make it so I'll never feel you
Make it so I don't care whats true

Now I am full of The Heavy Empty
A burning hollow space within me
A chalice brimming with a barren sea

I must find something within myself
Find something beyond help
Find the way that feeling felt
Find a map was written in welts

A map to your home
A mask for my gloaming
A map to the sunrise
A cask full of mourning

Now I am full of The Heavy Empty
A burning hollow space within me
A chalice brimming with a barren sea

Now I am full of the words I swallowed
Plans I made, but never followed,
Things I told myself I had to believe
Believe in something within myself
Believe I wasn't beyond help
Believe I knew how feeling felt
Believe a map was written in welts
Believe in you and not in me

Now I am full of The Heavy Empty