You brought color to my life
The day you came into this world
Fade to black now
It's all over
Mother wakes me up
Five years old at six o'clock
I'm too young and it's too dark
Hands me your bottle
Seated next to your crib
Feeding you milk
Off she goes
When will we see her again?
Who knows
Put you in my lap when you cry
Singing you Twinkle Twinkle
Because you were my little star
Only one coming to my rescue
Every time my days got dark
Changing your clothes
Walking talking toilet-training
Bringing you to school then bringing you back
Teaching you English science and math
Of all the people who hurt me bad
You're the last I ever thought was capable of that
First time
You found out I sent your father to jail
You were eight
Took off your belt and smacked me fast
Wonder where you learned that
You see the apple didn't fall far from the tree
And to this day I hate Adam and Eve
Because knowledge has left me with far less good than evil
And if I created a monster then that must make me the devil
Now
You are so much taller and bigger than me
Getting mad at everything
Screaming in my face
With your hands around my throat
Calling me every bad word in the book
You're suffocating me and I can't take it anymore
I'm grabbing the knife
Wait-I've seen this before
She used to walk around the house
With a knife in each hand
He'd brainwash us into believing
She's the crazy kind of mad
But now I see she was just trying to protect herself
You weren't even born
You saw the least yet you've become the worst
Sucking the life out of everyone
Literally
All you really did see
Was me being thrown around for nothing
And now you do the same to me
I did not get this far to go through it again
This time I'm a grown woman
And you are not the man I raised
It breaks my heart
That the one person who brought me so much joy
Now brings me so much pain
No more fake apologies or excuses
I'm done with second million chances
You are weak
And raising your hand on a woman
Is not gonna make you strong
You need help and you need it now
Consider this a boundary
An unbreakable wall
Because sometimes bridges are meant to be burned
May this one light the way
To a life that takes my breath away
Out of love