Twilight Cogitation V Video (MV)

What if I told you that you never left my soul
Carry the boulder of a giant and I can never let it go
Its all my fault and I was angry
I just couldn't contain it
The rage and anger built up
Only to erupt somethin dangerous
I didn't want to get hurt
But it was too late for that
When you told me your lies
I knew then it was a wrap
But I didn't believe it
I didn't want to let you go
Especially when I knew I knew you only lied because you loved
But that same desire in your heart put a bullet thru my gut
I felt the venom and poison the ridiculous noises
I felt trapped in this void with only anger and voices
Screaming at me like banshees, boys, and white women in horrors
So hard for me to breathe I'm bleedin, wheezin and gaspin
Sneezin, heavin, and blackin
I need Jesus relax me
You never knew what that felt for me
But I knew you had felt
With your ex and all the shit he put you thru it was hell
I promised to never leave
Promised to never cheat
That I would be there when you fell
I'd always be here when you needed
But I was so new to love
I didn't have what it takes
We were both goin thru shit
We never could could catch a break
But you stronger than me
And I know that now
You gave your heart to love when you cloud barely know what was now
And I'm sorry
Wish I could take it back
Wish I could have stayed for you
Wish I could have made it back
I'm so f*ckin sick of my pride
So f*ckin sick of my life
I just try and f*ckin fail
I f*ckin fail to get by
I said goodbye when I really shoulda been there by your side
I couldn't trust you
I couldn't trust myself
So I'm f*ckin thinkin that's whats best that's whats really gonna help myself
You needed me
I just couldn't believe
Too shady with your ways anyway there was no need for me to see
No decency in my heart I tore my walls down for you
And I ruined it on my own thinkin you were bulletproof
I'll never love like I did your ass
You were my first love I'll always love your ass
Never had to touch you to love you
Never had to f*ck you to love you
And that would just be my f*ckin luck cuz I love you
I love you

Bring me quiet, bring me into shelter
Show me loving, show me what you want from me
And I'll cover you!
See you stopping, why you're running so afraid?
You let me down, boy!

And I bleed heavy for your love
But you're standing, you're standing
And I bleed heavy for your love
But you're standing, you're standing

You got a new man now
I saw the whole video
That shit had took me to tears anger fear and much envious
But you deserve that
You deserve someone strong
Not just some arrogant piece of shit screaming at you through his songs
I was wrong and I'm sorry
In every possible way
But I'd lyin if I said that I ain't felt some type of jealousy
But its not for me to decide
Whats best for your heart
Cause look where its got me
To twilight number 4
I pray your new boo won't ever do you no wrong
Cuz I'll kill him myself
Myself, him, your ex, and your mom
And you know just what I mean
Only you would understand
Just know that baby you golden and you deserve a better man
Ym better when I'm not sober
Cuz I miss you a lot
Still think about you every day
And everyday you do not
And that's just what I get
T. Hayes a lil bitch
But you knew that when I proved that
I left your heart in a ditch
I'm sorry

How you treat me, how you let me fall apart
I've been stable, running to an open heart
See me crumble, crumbling is just a start
Won't you let me help boy? Let me help boy?!

And I bleed heavy for your love
But you're standing, you're standing
And I bleed heavy for your love
But you're standing, you're standing

But you're standing, you're standing
But you're standing, you're standing
But you're standing, you're standing
You're standing
You're standing
You're standing