Taia Thompson - Drowns me out Lyrics

I know,
Something's wrong with my head
It, feels like a ball of lead
Falls heavy with all my regret
But I've just gotta breath in
And out distracting my my mind and forget about
Constantly filling my head, with doubt
Getting myself of this round-about

So I can be myself again
Around my friends
Not worrying about
What's within

But it's always there to drown me out
Always compare myself to the clout
Never prepared, what's that about?
I can never see things straight
And it makes me angry, makes me shout
Oh the bliss that I'd be in without
But it's always there and you are never there for me

I know
I believe most things that I am told
But all the lies are getting old
Especially the ones that I mold
The ones that aren't even real
I find
It's usually the ones that are on my mind
Ones that convince me that I'm not fine
Wish that in life I could just rewind

So I can be myself again
Around my friends
Not worrying about
What's within

But it's always there to drown me out
Always compare myself to the clout
Never prepared, what's that about?
I can never see things straight
And it makes me angry, makes me shout
Oh the bliss that I'd be in without
But it's always there and you are never there for me

And the hardest part's convincing
That it isn't just me
Will things ever get easier?
I guess we'll see

But it's always there to drown me out
Always compare myself to the clout
Never prepared, what's that about?
I can never see things straight
And it makes me angry, makes me shout
Oh the bliss that I'd be in without
But it's always there and you are never there for me