Here I spin all alone again breathing in as it always begins
Then a pulse check and a look around the room
No one to bounce my reality back to me, strangers in the symphony
It won't always be this way
All I really want is to have a drink, share what I think, have a laugh
Take a break from all the static in the air
I suffer but I don't suffer enough to earn the pity or the shame that I'm not sure I really want from you or him or her anyway
There's no happiness
You don't deserve to win
I feel you cover me in your black cloud can't ignore your grip so tight and loud
I'm gonna make you disappear today
I'm tired of being the one who runs, I'd rather turn my face to the burning sun
I'm gonna make you disappear today
Chatter all you want (I'm not listening)
I'm gonna push you down (you'll have no victory)
The more you try to block my path
The more you pull, the more I laugh
The end of you is not the end of me
Refresh again
Refresh again
Low grade every days hover like a canopy of bills unpaid can't breathe as freely as I did the days before you came along but now you're here my instinct is to push you down and block you out and beat you back
And occasionally I go a stretch when I smile and I don't think about this mess you left
That's when I feel my old self peering back my way
These times of clear and lack of dread will soon replace the pressure in my head
Gone will be the grey I am today
Trouble swallowing
Sense of urgency
Swirling falsehoods of the mind
Time to fly away from here
Looking back on my resentment, inability to revel in genuine contentment
Rewards aren't given to the nice guy in the room
Everywhere I see that lonely face, a return of shame and self-disgrace
It makes sense how it all turned out this way
Chatter all you want (I'm not listening)
I'm gonna push you down (you'll have no victory)
The more you try to block my path
The more you pull, the more I laugh
The end of you is not the end of me
Refresh again
Refresh again
Breathe you away (its time to go)
Sleep you away (its time to go)
Dream you away Goodbye
Dream you away Goodbye