Bleak Memories Video (MV)

I haven't seen the Sun so long
My Fortune turned away
I hoped I died, but I was wrong
My life is price to pay
With fear of silence in my head
I used to cry a lot
Now all my feelings which I dread
Stained my hands in blood
You don't believe me. No one believes, for sure
You think I'm insane. My prayers you ignore
I do not hate you. Although I hate my soul
My sadness leaves a rotting hole

Drown in my own
No bottom down beneath me. I blame myself for life
There in my own
Bleak memories of bright days lose the endless strife

You say you tired of me, you know
I'm tired of me as well
I can't endure this pain no more
It kills me, I can tell
I'm really sick of walls around
That build the path I go
They don't protect me, as I thought
They are not my law
You don't believe me. I do not ask for it
But I'm still breathing and you should deal with it
I can not hate you. You don't deserve my hate
We should have live, but it's too late

Who will wait when I go away?
Who will stay grieving night and day?
Who am I calling to?
Who will save me from my mistakes?
Before I leave, I wish to see your eyes
To feel your lips, to hear your charming lie

My ashes perish with my soul, and nothing left of me
But no one answer me what for