Purgatory Video (MV)

I wish I could remember a time when I could have a friend
I couldn't remember if I tried, that's how sad I've been
It's like I'm aiming just to please but that's a dividend
That's paid to loyals and people who have the patience to pretend
I'm good at burning bridges and I'm at bad at recollection
I've made so many enemies that I can't even reckon
How my dignity has lessened and my shame is always present
'Cause I've kinda reached a point where all my senses have been deadened
Look I messed up
I'm not deserving of your pity
I know it really sucks
To think about someone so gritty
It's not pretty
I really wasn't privy
To all the drama coming from your friend's social committee
I admit I was a jerk and I admit I was a bully
I admit that I can never ever apologise fully
I could never take it back because I acted prematurely
And I have no active mercy save the grapple of a pulley

Purgatory waits for those who seek judgement
It's our fate to make sure you lament
Everybody dies but nobody forgets
The heinous crimes you went on to commit
Purgatory waits for those who seek judgement
It's our fate to make sure you lament
Everybody dies but nobody forgets
The heinous crimes you went on to commit

I always kept denying
And all this time I'm crying
I go to make amends but they don't even see I'm trying
Like the world is against me
And my family resents me
I'll never get forgiveness even though I keep repenting
I made a grave mistake, and I should pay the price
I just know selfishness, I don't know sacrifice
But would it kill the world, to look me in the eyes
Without a dumb excuse, telling me all these lies
"I just can't do this, you're irredeemable"
"I can't go through this, you haven't seen it all"
"I'm not your saviour, so please don't come to me"
"I don't do favours, what were you expecting"
Alone without a friend, I think this place could be my home
I'll never love again I might as well just toss my phone
If I drowned in a river would someone even know I'm gone
I guess I'll know the answer to that question before long

Purgatory waits for those who seek judgement
It's our fate to make sure you lament
Everybody dies but nobody forgets
The heinous crimes you went on to commit
Purgatory waits for those who seek judgement
It's our fate to make sure you lament
Everybody dies but nobody forgets
The heinous crimes you went on to commit

Bruh, you think I wanted this to be
Yuh, you think I don't wanna be free
Huh, you think you know better than me
Well it's a bit too late for a fool who's stuck in purgat'ry
Yea, I bet you're thinking that you're keen
Yea, I bet you wanna see me scream
Well, I'm never gonna make a scene
'Cause it's a bit too late for a fool who's stuck in purgat'ry

Purgatory waits for those who seek judgement
It's our fate to make sure you lament
Everybody dies but nobody forgets
The heinous crimes you went on to commit
Purgatory waits for those who seek judgement
It's our fate to make sure you lament
Everybody dies but nobody forgets
The heinous crimes you went on to commit