Message from a Loving Son Video (MV)

This is from a loving son to a loving mother
I wanted to thank you for raising me the way you did
If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be the man I am
Thank you mom
I love you
Dear Madre
All I wanna do is say sorry
For all the times you harmed me
This is the beginning of my story
Dear Madre
All I want to do is say I am sorry
For all the times you harmed me
Look I don't know what I did to you ehh
All I want to do is say is sorry "sorray"
Every text I send you ignore meh
You even laughed in my face
Said that I am a disgrace
Then you dishonored my name
For reasons that's hard to say
I kept all of my feelings bottled up for years
Till it brought me to f*cking tears
Laying there crying in my room
Fighting back all the tears
Because of you I lost all my fears
It makes life too real
At times its hard to feel
Anything but the anger inside
What's that kind of itch
That makes you feel like a bitch inside
I can see it in your eyes the lil tick
All I was to you a lil problem
One that there's no solving
Remember back to that car accident
You never asked if I was harmed
If it was up to you
You would have thrown me away as fast as my guitar
To you I was a person to put your problems on
To your family I was nothing but a problem child
To me all this needs to f*cking change
Before you're in the grave
So im putting on this all my pent up rage
Before I go insane
Anytime I think of you it hurts my brain
Sometimes I question if im still sane
Some might think my rhymes are lame
But im telling you it comes from the heart
So its time to tear you apart
Ill be told its murder
But my response is its art
You took my food from me
Because I wouldn't lie for cheese
This is hard to say
At times I feel like taking my life away
I just want to say you may have my love for today
But I cant promise about tomorrow
You always told me to follow your rules under your roof
Then you betrayed me for the one that made a roof
I cant blame you for all my mistakes
But I can say it doesn't help me today
Im drowning in my emotions
It feels like im stuck in the ocean
Without air to breath
These demons try to come to consume me
They tell me there's no where run go or hide
All there's left is for me to die
But I don't want to die
But its killing me inside
To know your family has left me all alone
This is a painful subject
That's why im making it public
I don't care what anyone thinks of it!