Lately I've been having gloomy days
I can't seem to shake off the shade
I've been waiting for a lifetime of change
Maybe I'm thinking too much to be okay
Lately I've been having rainy days
The pain is too much for me to take
Maybe my life is a big mistake
Maybe I'm thinking too much to be okay
Maybe I'm in
Over my head
Maybe my thoughts
Are what kill me instead
I feel so close
To the edge
I feel so closed
I'm better off dead
I can't wake up
To who I am
Cause who I was
Never took a stand
I let them walk
All over me
Like I'm naive
Like I can't see
Like the problems
Have responded
Back to all this negativity
I'm blinded by a light
I'm just hoping it's my destiny
Lately I've been having gloomy days
I can't seem to shake off the shade
I've been waiting for a lifetime of change
Maybe I'm thinking too much to be okay
Lately I've been having gloomy days
I can't seem to shake off the shade
I've been waiting for a lifetime of change
Maybe I'm thinking too much to be okay
Damn it's such a shame
Everyone around me watching like a matinee
They all wondering where the story goes
And how I'll get my name
I never ask for help
Because I don't want to take the blame
Every night is fighting with my mom
It's such a shame
You don't know the struggle
In my chest is with the pain
If only they knew what went on in my head
They would see thoughts that would put them to bed
They don't understand whatever is said
They think they are helping
But really it's them
Trying to leave
I gotta get away
Gotta let go of the hate
I'm not feeling okay
Yeah I'm anxious as f*ck
It might all be you
I mean waking up to pain
Cause the promises fell through
I felt it before
So it really isn't new
This therapy session is more like a zoo
Lions on top
I'm weak at the bottom
I do nothing but writing
But that doesn't solve em
The problems I have
Yeah no one else gets em
I tried writing to god
But he just dismissed them
Lately I've been having gloomy days
I can't seem to shake off the shade
I've been waiting for a lifetime of change
Maybe I'm thinking too much to be okay
Lately I've been having rainy days
The pain is too much for me to take
Maybe my life is a big mistake
Maybe I'm thinking too much to be okay