Conversations With My Crackhead Video (MV)

We were brought up being taught about science
We were brought up being taught about Shakespeare but let me make something clear
Yeah let me make something clear
In an insecure world pleasure is uncertain, when it will appear again is hard to determine
Has my mind been stolen, do I need oxytocin
I feel broken but I don't need therapy, I don't need that rubbish
I got photos to publish, now I feel overwhelmed
Darkness descends as I enter the shadow realm
My minds been overthrown, there's no way home
Serenity pays my bill, I'm looking for a thrill
Look for likes to refill, will this help me fulfill
Like, like, like let the dopamine spike
Tryna doge like Neo, choked in the steep hold, my minds playing tricks, unlike the matrix
These bullets seem to hit, mad maverick misunderstood
Great insecurities turn to drugs or drink, this joy will I receive again
I'm really scared to think
Feelings to conceal, drinking to feel
Ego driven it's unreal, what will actually help me heal
Third-party validation is the appeal
Wish I chose blue, I can't deal with what's real
How can I expect all of you to open up
All I wanna do is hide myself and cover up
Practice what I preach so class will begin
Loughborough 2017, beginning to an end
Walk in, sit down, a fortress I've made
Pandora's box holding all the demons at bay
Neural sharman taking me down paths I've never ever been
The doorways I've never seen, alleviate my pain
Insane in the membrane
Multiverse of madness, need the doctor to my strange, synapses explained
Unbiased opinion to help me explore
Slice all the feelings yeah that I've got stored
Don't want to feel defensive, don't want to feel aggressive
Wanna feel content, don't wanna resent
The crackhead a concoction of all my life events
That coffee laced with venom, carnage to my cerebellum
It's a game for my throne but I'm far from home
Learning Kwikly, C between B and D
No time for Indica, choices between birth and death define me
Where's my Ithaca, fight like Odysseus, Scylla and Charybdis
My mind will be Invictus, I'm the captain of this charter
Easier or harder, don't need the armoury just archaeology, my cerebral artery
Digging through my tomb, finding those wounds
What will I uncover, what will I discover
Maybe once I know myself I'll connect with another
Now I'm shattered and split new beliefs to submit
Will I be accepted if I change and commit
It's scary thought to think I really have to admit
Feeling like crap I'm about to collapse
I'm ready to snap but the next thing I know
I'm ready I'm back
I open up, I cry, I talk, I laugh, I learn, I'm ready to go, ready to move, ready to flow
A new discipline, of blissplin
Vishen taught me to finally live within
My code i'm debugging is this my homecoming
Upgrade my avatar connecting with Ewa
Oral calligraphy to write my reality
Understand my psyche, gym for my mind
That's how I see therapy
Helen changed the tide of my Trojan war
The horse to remove, the crackhead from its throne
Calm the cyclone so I have the ability to stand on my own
Today is tomorrow I worried about yesterday so I make it happen now
I'm gonna cambiare
Thank you for the lesson mi sento fortunato
Let me just say
Shukufku o arigato