TheWitch - Trying To Understand Lyrics

It's been a long, long time
Since I opened up my eyes
It's been a while
Since I saw you last July
And in that time I've realized
Not to search for the reasons why
That some secrets should remain behind your eyes
Still I try
So I'm trying
Just trying
Trying to understand
For forty days and nights
I didn't see the light
Never went outside to ease my own mind
I tried to find it buried around
Somewhere deep beneath the ground
In the nameless grave between the two lakes of our town
So I'm trying
Just trying
Trying to understand
Your plans
And maybe your reasons
So I'm trying
Just trying
Just trying
Trying to understand