Tim Colliander - The Trickster Lyrics

I mostly think about you in ways that I don't want to grasp
In the dead hands of a future that's been left without a past
But I don't want to think about a presence that holds me back
Instead I want to keep my mind in focus and on track

So I try so hard all day I try so hard all night
And still all that I get from you is unattentive spite
But I don't want to be the person who ends up by himself
So I pretend that what bothers me is done with good intent

Cause I don't want to grasp the shit that you've already done
I think if I ignore those things I'm tolerant and fun
Though it might sure make my hands tied
If I left you to decide
How I'm supposed to feel all time and what thoughts I should hide

The tricks I try to play myself
The tricks the tricks I play myself
The tricks I try to play myself
Will be my great big disguise
Will be killing me in time

I keep on having pop up memories that go against
The sort of thoughts I had of us that made us such great friends
But I don't want to be the person who you go against
Even if it makes sure that my life just won't make sense

So I'll just have to pretend that I have full control of myself
And keep on seeing the weakest parts of me as parts I can't help
I guess that is the road I've gone
I guess that is what turned you on
I guess that I'm no more bigger now then when we play pretend

And the tricks I try to play myself
The tricks the tricks I play myself
The tricks I try to play myself
Will be my great big disguise
Will be killing me in time

Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time
Will be killing me in time