Looking Back Video (MV)

Lookin back, at all the hearts I broke
Of friends, girls, and my folks
Oh I just didn't care, they would cry and I would stare

Lookin back, I never was truly happy
I know I always was laughing
But inside I was cryin
I felt dead, cause my soul was dyin

Blamin everyone for the way I felt
When I really just hated myself

Lookin back, I thought that drugs were the answer
To my emotional cancer
Anything to numb the pain
Whatcha got there? How many do I take?

Lookin back, at all the boundaries I tested
Until I finally got arrested
In jail with no hope, a cold cell is no joke

One phone call, I rang my dad at home
He said "Son I'll bring ya home
We gave you so many chances
You did things your way, and look where you landed"
He said goodbye, and I started to cry

Blamin everyone for the way I felt
When I really just hated myself
Blamin everyone for the way I felt
When I really just hated myself