Time After Ashes - Holding on (Live) Lyrics

Back in that place again
Confront my thoughts and then
Convincing myself that what I felt wasn't necessary
You were always telling me
But I didn't have the eyes to see
That what you said would have any meaning down to the line
You said your last goodbye
I always wondered why
And in my mind I kept telling myself "one day you'll come back"
But now I'm sitting here
Alone and fighting tears
'Cause what you said it, it cut deep
Can't help but
I'm holding on
To the life I've never known
It's there
But I have to let it go
"You'll never change", you said
Time after time you pled
Until the time finally came and you moved on with your life
I tried to tell you hardly
How I was deeply sorry
But all that ever came out were empty promises, I
Have suffered day and night
Without you there's no light
I understood you too late
And now I can't have you back
So now I'm sitting here
Alone and with my fears
'Cause all I did paint you deep
Can't help but
I'm holding on
To the life I've never known
It's there
But I have to let it go
I'm holding on
To the life I've always known
You're there
But I have to let you go
I'm holding on
You're there
But I have to let you go