Shellshock from the blast
Muffled ears, can't believe what I hear
Never caught off guard like that
Always had a healthy sense of fear
Sobered up off secondhand stories
It's in the air but can't quite breathe it in
Left alone with strangers at a party
And reasons that just don't exist
First new year that you're not here
Just another day
To not sleep, not eat
Still look like I'm okay
To count down the memories I'm trying to forget
Survive another 365 without my best friend
I keep it on the downlow
Get reckless with the rest of them
Acting like I'm high
God only knows I'm feeling numb
Fireworks in the background
Hurts to Hear
People moving on to the next happy new year
Everything works out, in the end
I think that's what they say
Try telling that to my friend
Still so young yet he passed away
God never gives you more than you can handle
Just enough to make you go insane
Learning life is too good at turning tables
But it ain't easy
I'm just taking it day by day
First new year that you're not here
Just another day
To not sleep, not eat
Still look like I'm okay
To count down the memories I'm trying to forget
Survive another 365 without my best friend
I keep it on the downlow
Get reckless with the rest of them
Acting like I'm high
God only knows I'm feeling numb
Fireworks in the background
Hurts to Hear
People moving on to the next happy new year
It's not okay that we're moving on
Is it too late to say when someone's gone
Don't wanna get better
Cuz I'd rather remember
The time we had
So bittersweet
Why the world took you back
Is a mystery
My ears they ring
Can only hear one thing
Know you're enough
Know you're loved
Are you listening
Just know you're enough
And know you're loved
First new year that you're not here
Just another day
To not sleep, not eat
Still look like I'm okay
To count down the memories I'm trying to forget
Survive another 365 without my best friend
I keep it on the downlow
Get reckless with the rest of them
Acting like I'm high
God only knows I'm feeling numb
Fireworks in the background
Hurts to Hear
People moving on to the next happy new year