tiny seagulls - excelsior Lyrics

And I might just be seventeen again
Painted nails and shitty jacket in the cold
And I might not understand myself
Just the same as everybody else
And I might just be a bit too much
Into this, and in tune with you and me
And I might just be thirty-two next year
It's all the same
If you're just standing around
So while the world
Moves ever upwards
I maintain a steady distance
For fear of standing out
And for fear of blending in
And while the world
Keeps spinning faster
I remain inside my shell
For fear of going up there
For fear of staying here
And I know the oceans are rising
As if to reach the ones who force it to
And I can't climb with all this salt in my lungs
But I need it to help me breathe
And I've hoped for an airlift for too long
And I still dream about a magic cloud
And I've seen pictures of me on the summit before
But up there I'm not myself
So while the world (So while the world)
Moves ever upwards (Moves ever upwards)
I maintain a steady distance
For fear (For fear)
Of standing out (Of standing out)
And for fear of blending in
And while the world (And while the world)
Keeps spinning faster (Keeps spinning faster)
I remain inside my shell
For fear (For fear)
Of going up there (Of going up there)
And for fear of staying here
And I'm egregiously guilty of avoidance
If there isn't a knife on my throat
And I'm deliberately stalling for time
If there isn't a gun in my back
And I could use all the help that I can get
If I ever wanted to accept it
And I won't ask for anything at all
Except for everything that I'll never get
So while the world (So while the world)
Moves ever upwards (Moves ever upwards)
I maintain a steady distance
For fear (For fear)
Of standing out (Of standing out)
And for fear of blending in
And while the world (And while the world)
Keeps spinning faster (Keeps spinning faster)
I remain inside my shell
For fear (For fear)
Of going up there (Of going up there)
And for fear of staying here
And I just want you (I just want you)
To see me as someone (See me as someone)
Who brought any kind of joy to your life
And I just want you (I just want you)
To remember my name (To remember my name)
As an echo of a familiar sound
And I see the world (And I see)
Moving upwards (Moving upwards)
And I just have to be myself