TJB - Outside Lyrics

This is how I feel when it's dark outside
Slumped by the thoughts that invade my mind
Body feels tense, and I think sometimes
Been in my head, and I been outside
Not in my house, see, me chilling outside
Feeling real trapped, don't got more time
Thus, how was I? When I'm feeling like two
Someone's outside, see, the devil's new grin

I would never leave myself
Doing kinda better, have you seen myself?
Yeah, I been to hell but I came right back
Chillin' with the evils that live in my head
Didn't know how but I felt locked in
Pass me the pain, and I hit like damn
Man, I am feeling myself
Dance, look ma, I do it no hands
Bands, mind said I needed more zeroes
Plans, mind said I needed goals
Mask, mind said I needed more opps
Put 'em on rocks, and I swallow my pride
Drinkin' more sips, I believe my lies
Running with the scythe, and I feel my high
Ego with the stick, and it's dark outside
Dropped more bodies, let the ego in

This is how I feel when it's dark outside
Slumped by the thoughts that invade my mind
Body feels tense, and I think sometimes
Been in my head, and I been outside
Not in my house, see, me chilling outside
Feeling real trapped, don't got more time
Thus, how was I? When I'm feeling like two
Someone's outside, see, the devil's new grin

If I could never be me, you'll never be you
Think you the soul, but you really my shoe
Feeling like home, but you know it's not true
Stealin' my zone, think I'm feelin' my doom?
This is our house, but you chill in my room
This is my life, and I need to breathe too
Stop with the stick, 'cause I need a turn too
Not how I want it, could your death come soon?
We're one in the same
Living through time in this space
You wanted the pain, so I granted the pain
No one is standin' in way
No one is stoppin' the change
You let me in, and I danced with pain
Moving real slow, and you got here this way
No one else killing, you killing yourself

This is how I feel when it's dark outside
Slumped by the thoughts that invade my mind
Body feels tense, and I think sometimes
Been in my head, and I been outside
Not in my house, see, me chilling outside
Feeling real trapped, don't got more time
Thus, how was I? When I'm feeling like two
Someone's outside, see, the devil's new grin

See, I like winning, I been in my house
Living like Larry at the bottom of the sea
Running out of time, see, I hate myself
Cutting my wrist, 'cause I hate myself
Slap my bitch, 'cause I hate myself
Grab a new drink, 'cause I hate myself
Hit a new lick, 'cause I hate myself
Got a new vice, don't you hate yourself?
Living while I can, while in my house
No one understands that I feel locked out
Pounding on the door like I need some help
Mama's on the floor like please God help
I don't know how to calm myself
I don't know how to ask for help
See, my mind got me killing myself
One more round I'll be myself

This is how I feel when it's dark outside
Slumped by the thoughts that invade my mind
Body feels tense, and I think sometimes
Been in my head, and I been outside
Not in my house, see, me chilling outside
Feeling real trapped, don't got more time
Thus, how was I? When I'm feeling like two
Someone's outside, see, the devil's new grin