I guess it's time that i really talk my shit than let y'all wonder
Cooking up a storm in my bedroom y'all feel the thunder
Of emotions and depression that I'm holding from last summer
I guess it's safe to say I'm living in a cycle
Past emotions on a song I've scriptured down how I recycle
Feeling some kinda way we chopped it out as clean as Michael
When it got heavy for our souls we would hold the bible
Still amazed how all this ship came to a final
Never the less I still die for this shit
I'm working hard for everyone who wanted to be rich in my own family
If I'm rich than everyone of them is rich
Couldn't be like most of them that turned into some witch
My heart is cold from the things I've seen when I was a kid
Now starting to see that most of those things wasn't clean
I pray the Lord decompose they sins before he calls them in
Before it's too late and we all stuck in this myth
My dad is someone I never wanna be when I grow older
Failed to lead his family so he turned into a vulture
Narcissistic aim in everything he puts his aura
Seen him hit my mom I couldn't do shit I was younger
This other time I tried to do some shit he knocked me over
And later that day we ate dinner like we alright
I barely slept that whole night
Thinking how my moms like
Hopping she would leave but she told me baby I'm all fine
Now seeing my mother hopeless and filled with weakness
I vowed to never be like the man that she's in love with
Always doing better by her side I kept my promise
My sister too I'm holding
Became a father way before i had my own kids
I'm not even joking
Always hoping I get better but I'm copping
I left my feelings in the past they tried to stop me
I had to do it so I can get by they ain't no stopping
Hau how
How would you feel
If you were me in my shoes you would be a crip
I fell In love a couple times but didn't win
Hurt you couple time leaving was never the deal
I still miss how you feel
Knowing I messed up but this shit bigger than me
You had your own endeavors and I helped deal with it
Now tables turn but you had to burn the bridge
How would you feel if you were me on this mission