TO NOWHERE - BLOOM Lyrics

I need to feel
What is really real
From the thoughts in your head
(To the pain that you heal)
A Smokey tune
Turn daylight into noon
In a rusty feathered room
(Just take your clothes off in the bloom)
Last night the summer finished right
With your eyes sit and stare
(But I couldn't find you anywhere)
Take a fool make him jealous
Pick your tools
You got a life that you choose
(To dismantle and abuse)
You got feeling kinda used
From the guys that left you loose
In a wavy crazy sense of maybe
When you light the fuse
And that your digging in your own grave
And now your stuck deep in my memory
Where's the sense of pride you used to crave
Another promise that you couldn't save
I'm sick of playing like an enemy
To understand what it really means
Don't want to feel
The silence isn't real
I think I'm lost on the edge
(To the love you reveal)
Find a use
Cigarettes and drug abuse
Alcohol to hide the truth
(Your eyes are gazing at a noose)
If what we planned was even due
We keep on dying in this room
With a destination complication
Storm that was you
Oh dear
What I fear
Couldn't find another way
To settle ties and clear the slates
Your disciples let you overweigh
Pin you down and watch me break
While I lie awake for better days
And that your digging in your own grave
And now your stuck deep in my memory
Where's the sense of pride you used to crave
Another promise that you couldn't save
I'm sick of playing like an enemy
To understand what it really means
To be okay alright
Let's be the bitter lie
And oh god you got let it bleed
I think I forgot how to f*cking breath
Numb me up so I can see
What it feels like to be just like me
Surrounded by those empty seats
But I'm screaming someone help me please
I know that I'm nobody
I know that I'm still a dream
Got to a place we couldn't reach
It's hard for me to paint the scene
When your not here right next to me
Right next to me