Best Friend Video (MV)

I just buried my best friend
Didn't notice no one in the crowd
Where were you then
Why are you here now
See I just buried my best friend
I wish he had another way out
Tell your friends you love them
Cause they need to hear now
In this four corner room staring at candles
Life is a little bit hard to handle
Been on damage control trying to pick up the pieces
And I've been getting really tired trying to pray up to Jesus
My faith been wavering lately
Even my safe haven is shaky
The ones who I've saved plenty of times can't save me
And I wish I had a little repayment
Cause the weight that I've been shouldering
And hurt that I've been holding in
Is feeling too much like a boulder and
I wanna unload but everywhere that I go
I feel like I gotta bear their load
And I'll gladly do it
Even though all I wanna talk about
That's going on in my mind is the people that I'm losing
See no one knows the pain I deal with on the day to day
Laying up in bed wishing to fade away
Cause I close my eyes and I see Eddie
God I promise I'll be better if you let me
Hug him one last time
Please one last time
Maybe everything else will be fine
I just buried my best friend
Didn't notice no one in the crowd
Where were you then
Why are you here now
See I just buried my best friend
I wish he had another way out
Tell your friends you love them
Cause they need to hear now
As I sit back and ponder what I'm doing here
Stare at the world inside of my palms and I'm feeling fear
Feeling doubt
Wanting strength to figure out
The meaning of this life like what's it really about
Cause I see hatred until familiar faces see the coffin
Of a mutual youth donned in a suit
With his mother's tears falling like Autumn
I guess these years of abuse finally caught him
So from backyard football to OD's that shook all
We put blindfolds over our eyes to look on
Cover our ears while the preacher speaks
Novacane to numb the feeling of pain so we can feel relief
I've been questioning a lot of things I've seen lately
Like why we carry so much on the daily
My sister you're a beauty
Like God crafted you with his own two
And then brought you to me
I be blessed with your presence you're the whitest of doves
So in the present I present to you the finest of love
And my brother why you trying to be who you ain't
Masculinity contests be empty and vain
Cause what you're lacking is the ability to rightfully change
The internal image of you that's been haunting your brain
And I get it
Cause me and you are the same
Trying to run a race in circles with no end to this game