Everyday I feel I'm gonna lose my grip
And I know if I don't hold on then I just might slip
See I never make it easy, I'm indecisive
Yeah yeah
So I take a sec to breathe as I light my spliff
Lately I have had a lot of nights like this
Everyday I feel I'm gonna
Lose focus, like my lens got blurred
But I'm gonna be the reason that my ends get heard
I just trend set first how I blend my words
Then my mind holds back cuz
Everyday I feel I'm gonna
Lose my shit, when am I going to quit
I can't do this on my own, I think I'm going too quick
Always a bone to pick and I'm prone to flip
Then my mind holds back cuz
Everyday I feel I'm gonna
Blow up
But then I tell myself I've gotta grow up
You're lucky that I even f*cking showed up
The weight I've been carrying on my shoulders
The things I've done that no-one's gonna notice
Cuz I've been storing it away in folders
I know that truly I'm one of the coldest
But I've not done enough for you to know this
Everyday I feel I'm gonna lose my grip
And I know if I don't hold on then I just might slip
See I never make it easy, I'm indecisive
Yeah yeah
So I take a sec to breathe as I light my spliff
Lately I have had a lot of nights like this
Everyday I feel I'm gonna lose my head
From the moment I wake up and I get out my bed
But I'm trying to get over it and smile instead
All that I can hope is that I try my best
Late nights, early mornings so I'm tired out
Know what I have got to do, I'll do it right now
While you're drowning in your sorrows on a night out
I'm working until tomorrow til it's lights out
Everyday I feel I'm gonna win
But then I take a couple hitters to the chin
Cuz I'm filling up with doubt, am I ever gonna swim
Drowning in the depths of my mind on a whim
They all think it's easy but it's harder than you think
In my vocal chain I am the weakest link
I always overthink but I'm trying to do my thing
Clients on my back but their rapping doesn't cling
I'm just working on my stack until it's really happening
And I know if I don't hold on then I just might slip
See I never make it easy, I'm indecisive
Yeah yeah
So I take a sec to breathe as I light my spliff
Lately I have had a lot of nights like this