Touring Saturn - Sunrise Song Lyrics

I don't want the sun to rise
Until I finish analyzing
Everything that made tonight a mess
And as I watch the clearest sky
Go from black to liquefied
I think about how I need to get dressed
Growing up is bittersweet
The freedom of a life complete with self-possessive misery
Or some absurd and glittery new thing
The only way to make it out alive
Is to follow the sound of my impulse
To scream until I sing
I don't want the sun to rise just yet
Cause then tonight will be regret
Instead of backdrop to build intrigue
The mirrors scrape the skies
They kill the lights, they tell me lies
But I feel beautiful swinging major league
Growing up is bittersweet
The crash of metal on concrete
Black pepper and strawberry
That all obscure the real life thing you need
The only way to make it out alive
Is to follow the sound of my impulse
To scream until I sing
No solace in the thought that I could act a way I'm not
To keep illusions up for want of you instead of me
I haven't done my taxes or slept a wink
I haven't fixed anything yet
There's my alarm, and then there's the sun
And outside I hear the blackbird start to sing
So I will sing