Traavonn - Maintain Lyrics

I'm just really tryna maintain
Most of my family they gang bang
Lately I'm stuck in a rut
I'm thinking I need me a lane change
Seeing life a little different now
I loved hard and u was trippin out?
You gon' see me get distant now
You gon' get back what you was dishing out
F*ck mom how'd you kick me out
Then let me back like the next day
F*cked around and made the best steak
But I'm still hurt cuz' there's dead weight
Was a lot said but there's more to say
But f*ck it I'm tryna move on
I do not get it
Niggas be pushing my buttons if I put hands on em then I'm the one wrong
Please move along
Ain't non to see
No competition I'm battling me
Spitting my story so passionately
Nip had the torch and he passed it to me
Had to pick all the locks just to grab all the keys
Had to straight do the most just to get where i am
U was watching my moves and fake cheering the whole time and really I thought u was fam
I don't not kno where I am
But ima just do what I can
Lit I'm never gon land
F*ck it I'm 10 toes taking a stand
I'm just really tryna maintain
I ain't slept in like 8 days
U ain't seeing different unless ur ways change
Save urself f*ck what they say
I'm just really tryna uh
I'm just really tryna maintain
I'm just really tryna woah
I'm just really tryna maintain

Please do not ask me what happened
Cuz I started rapping my pain in these lyrics
It was just me and u
Lowkey I needed u
Acted like u couldn't hear it
What did I see in u
Wanted to be wit u
I gave u my heart watched u tear it
I can't believe it's tru
F*ck it I'm leaving too
I had to look in the mirror
My vision still blurry
My thoughts coming clearer
I'm dreaming i kno that I'm near
I wish it was different
But hopefully distance
Will do it like clear out the air
I'm saying goodbye
But I ain't gon lie
I really do wish u was here
But f*ck it u lied
And why did I try
U had me feel stupid , embarrassed