Trabo - Find My Way Lyrics

I'm double-sided, I'm double-minded
Indecisive but I try not to give in when I'm enticed
I got a broken mind, now I'm all messed up
I gotta be re-wired cuz of what has been done
Inside of my head, I go through this depression
My past is dead, so why I am I so restless?
In self-condemnation where I take it too far
My wrists are clean, but my mind has the scars
Reminding me of what I'm not to be
So many battles, so far I ain't gotten free
If I can fall asleep then I'll find freedom
Or at least until all the horrible dreams come

I don't wanna give up
I don't wanna give in
But I can't do this on my own
So Lord, please help me win
I wanna stand up straight
I don't wanna slip away
Back into that place
Where I lose my way
Help me stand up straight
Help me find my way
'Cause I don't wanna slip away, away, no

I'm so sick and tired of abandoning integrity
The light dissipates 'cause my fear gets the best of me
But without truth, I'm left in the dark
All alone, late at night, with despair in my heart
I know that I'm not thinking straight
Yeah, I know my mind ain't right
But it doesn't really help just to know that I'm wrong
It's like knowing you're outnumbered caught up in a street fight
I continually battle this every night
Unwilling submission to my flesh is my plight
Can You please keep my soul upright?
And bring me back to walk in the light, 'cause

I don't wanna give up
I don't wanna give in
But I can't do this on my own
So Lord, please help me win
I wanna stand up straight
I don't wanna slip away
Back into that place
Where I lose my way
Help me stand up straight
Help me find my way
'Cause I don't wanna slip away, away, no

I've done things I'll never forget
The memories are all trapped in my head
They flood to the forefront when I lay in bed
And I try so hard to remember that
My identity is in what Christ did for me
Not in my mistakes or anything
That I've done or what I've been through
But the Son and what He went through
To make me new, to wash away
My darkest hues, my past mistakes
God, please help me stand up straight
Cuz I ain't gonna win this my own way
And I ain't gonna give up, I ain't gonna give in
The battle was already won
When death was trampled by the Son
And I am standing up right now
My flesh ain't gonna hold me down
I ain't gonna slip away
'Cause I been saved, I know the way

Help me stand up straight
Help me find my way
'Cause I don't wanna slip away