Tre the Transcendent - Awful Lyrics

The path to happiness is a journey through darkness
You must pass through without a flashlight
Don't lack sight of what's important and keep focus
On the goal you set before it's all gone into some kinda past life
I know, I know I'm negative as f*ck when I shouldn't be
I be getting paranoid from seeing someone look at me
I guess that's what happens when I let my mind get to me
I start to overthink and it distracts me from my destiny
I'm just sick and tired of feeling the way I do
So I make these stupid beats to write these stupid rhymes to
It's my medicine, the rainbow refracting off the prism
Crazy how it gives someone so cynical some optimism
Remarkable how it found me with such perfect timing
My silver lining is pencil writing potential rhyme schemes
And all my doubts and fears, I wish I could forget about it
But when I'm spitting I most definitely feel better 'bout it

I'm just trying to say
I just want to stay happy
But I feel awful inside
I know that I'll be fine
And it's okay
In the end, it will all be alright

I'm just trying to say
I just want to stay happy
But I feel awful inside
I know that I'll be fine
And it's okay
In the end, it will all be alright

So gifted, got me feeling so lifted
So committed to this shit, it's really got my mind twisted
I'm so soulful, got me feeling so old school
Got myself trapped in some mental kinda chokehold
But I'ma break free, I'ma make me
The f*cking best ever, I don't care if you hate me
If you could take me, erase my mistakes please
Take me way back to the days of the scraped knees
If I could change my errors I don't think I'd be perfect
So I'm hoping in the future my decisions are worth it
And I shouldn't be so cynical, this shit could be worse
I could've never made a beat or never written a verse
'Cause this is my happiness, I swear that I would fight for it
Cry for it, lie for it, I swear that I would die for it
It means everything to me and I could never lose it
The only thing that doesn't make me feel awful is the music

I'm just trying to say
I just want to stay happy
But I feel awful inside
I know that I'll be fine
And it's okay
In the end, it will all be alright

I'm just trying to say
I just want to stay happy
But I feel awful inside
I know that I'll be fine
And it's okay
In the end, it will all be alright