Treeskin - Take It/Leave It Lyrics

What does it mean to
How can I make this work
Awake in my bed 'cause my hands are shaking
Throat closes up
Impossible breathing, impossible breathing, impossible breathing
Take it or leave it, take it or leave it, take it or leave it, take it or leave it
Take it or leave it, take it or leave it, take it or leave it, take it or leave it

Leave it
Smoke is crawling down, down into my lungs where it can drown
Time to put it down, down and out of sight where it can't be found

I don't really need another, I don't really need another
I don't really need another, I don't really need another one
But it comes, and it wants what it wants
But I stamp it out