Triple W - I Don't Understand Lyrics

No I don't understand
This was never planned
No friends by my side
No ride or dies
Time to cut all my ties
Wipe the tears from my f*cking eyes
I know it hurts
All these words
This verse even cuts my heart in thirds
Haul me off in a hearse
Funny how
Cry for me then
But ignore me now
Please god
Please someone save me now

Really feels like the end for me
Really wish I could've beee
Something better
But I could never
See the big picture
Soul a mixture
Of indecision's
And visions of what could've Been
Life full of sin
Wrath was my only friend
And it led to my death in the end
Gotta greet death as an old friend
Greet him like an old friend

Really trying not to lose myself in this fight called life
And don't wanna see the light
Worry bout things that don't matter
Until I'm in the shit
Everyone expects me not to shatter
Under pressure
Make me treasure
Time taken for granted
Not feeling stranded
But I'm feeling stuck
In a rut
Thinking bout what's next
Thoughts of death
Cause of death
You know the rest

No going back
Time to wave the white flag
I'm done
I surrender
Heart went through the shredder
Same thing always happens
First it's harsh words
Then worse actions
Life's attractions
Beautiful distractions
Really hoping
I'm growing
I'm showing
I don't wanna fall
But try to call
No one answers anyway
Just trying to getaway

No you don't understand
How I feel how I deal
With this weight
On my shoulders
Bunch of heart poachers
Don't give a f*ck
I'm feeling really stuck
I'm my head
Poison about to spread
Gotta tread light
Rang on tight
Rollercoaster of emotion
My devotion
F*cking stolen
Then broken
Drugs got me rolling
Be awoken
And get spoken too
Those who I trust
Very f*cking few
Very f*cking few