$trongboy - Brknhrt Lyrics

I knew a girl
And every time i hear her name
I know that things are different and things are never the same
I understand that you hate me
I don't got no one to blame
Except for me! cause i'm the one to carry all of this shame
I didn't write this song to talk about me or the fact i'm hurting
Cause i'm doing better, my mental state is finally working
I killed those demons in my head
I knew they were lurking
I hope you find a state of bliss
I knew you were searchin'
Lets take a step back
And lets talk about that shit track
When i wrote it, I thought I was just stating a fact
But that toxic part of me just wanted you to react
And infact
I regret about every line in that track
I'm sorry that i hurt you
Oh I never deserved you (Oh)
Now I can't find the words to
Girl to tell you that it hurts too!
I'm sorry that i hurt you
Oh I never deserved you (Oh)
Now I can't find the words to
Girl to tell you that it hurts too!
Been 3 months and im still sober
Tired of writing these but i need the closure
Gotta put it in my head that this shit is over
When i'm in a deep sleep, I still hold her
Say you needed space so I guess I gotta give it
Demons on my back so I guess I gotta give in
Its a cold world and its sad that we live in
I dropped "b careful" and there like damn he did it!
Damn he went off, guess he really don't care
But inside with the pain that he really can't bear
Said he wanted change so he dyed his damn hair
Putting up a picture but he really do care
If I lost a flow, yea i'd be sad
When i lost you, yea i was sadder
I dissed you and acted like it don't matter
To hide the fact that i'm torn down and i'm shattered
I should've known this would never work
But inside I knew that the end would hurt
Dropped "b careful now i'm the jerk
Thought I'd feel better but i'm feeling worse
I'm sorry that i hurt you
Oh I never deserved you (Oh)
Now I can't find the words to
Girl to tell you that it hurts too!
I'm sorry that i hurt you
Oh I never deserved you (Oh)
Now I can't find the words to
Girl to tell you that it hurts too!
Don't know what to do i'm dumb insane
But i'm a different guy let me explain
Using rap to escape the pain
I'm tired of looking for someone else to blame
I was sad and angry, I got personal
I got a lot of weapons in my arsenal
And yet you killed me with words
Man that shit really do hurt
First sorry b cause I f*cked up
Then spider-man and Mary-Jane lucked up
I admit i was a lot and i sucked up
I wrote toxic just to construct a
Way to hold me down when i get to high
Way to keep me up when I wanna die
Way to remind me i'm an average guy
With a brkn hrt and an average sigh
I deleted your pictures from all my phones
Then recovered them back to get them in my dome
I'm running around looking for home cause I lost that when I lost you
I tried to say you were toxic
But really it was me all along
I'm a weak boy
Why the f*ck do they call me $trong?
I got my feeling hurt then i took it out in a song
Thought I was doing things right but i was doing them wrong
I hope you find someone or do something that makes you happy
I know that sometimes life can get hard and it can get crappy
I don't wanna stay here and get all sentimental and sappy
But I finally know what I wanna say and I ain't gonna let it pass me