Troy Warren - disguise Lyrics

I often wonder what I'm doing with my life
Putting so much passion into work despite the knife
Cutting into me and causing me to bleed
The energy inside draining as I recede
And sometimes it feels like I'm putting on an act
I'm tied up, I feel so trapped
This mask has been created to protect me
From this cruel world and those who wound me
This disguise is for my safety
But am I a lie? When will this ruse die?
Oh I'm trying my best to continue on
But so much damage has already been done
The smile on my face is a disguise
I spend too much time wondering when I'll die
Sometimes I think of my life like a game of chess
And every move I make is so meaningless
'Cause every time I move forward I am struck down
I can't make a single sound
This mask has been created to protect me
From this cruel world and those who wound me
This disguise is for my safety
But am I a lie? When will this ruse die?
Oh I'm trying my best to continue on
But so much damage has already been done
The smile on my face is a disguise
I spend too much time wondering when I'll die
When someone asks me how I'm doing I lie
I'm overwhelmed by a world that is burning
I wish I could be among the stars in the sky
'Cause I feel like I'm burning, my thoughts are so concerning
This mask has been created to protect me
From this cruel world and those who wound me
This disguise is for my safety
But am I a lie? When will this ruse die?
Oh I'm trying my best to continue on
But so much damage has already been done
The smile on my face is a disguise
I spend too much time wondering when I'll die