First Love Video (MV)

She had me suicidal
Suicidal, oh
She had me suicidal
She had me suicidal
(Yeah)
Yeah

She had me suicidal, insecure 'bout my feels
No, I'm not a survival, but yea with them pills
She had me suicidal, insecure 'bout
My self
Yea, I'm a survival, mix liquor with them pills

Damn, I don't feel too well in this dark room
I keep takin' pills and I take shrooms
I keep takin' but everything's startin
To move
Startin' to move
I feel like I'm lucid dreamin'
I feel like I'm movin', breathin'
Everything's real and everything's fake
Really wanna know what's real
And what's fake
Guess I'll never know what's real
And what's fake
I just wanna know what's behind my pain
Damn, even in the dreams, I'm still feelin' pain
Still feelin' pain
She broke my heart into two pieces
Let me be honest, it's not just two pieces
And it's not just three pieces
I don't really know, how many pieces
All I really know is I stopped breathin'
Damn, too many pieces, I cannot count
She threw me a kiss, I got knocked out
Too many pills in my body
Aye, too many pills in my body
Might just, throw up
Your love to me, is poison
Don't show nothin' to me
It's not a choice, yea
Used to get high over your voice, yea
Now, I would die over your voice, yea
First time I love is with a demon
They were right when they said
The first love is the worst
The worst love, the definition of the first love
The definition of the first love
Worst love

She had me suicidal, insecure 'bout my feels
No, I'm not a survival, but yea with them pills
She had me suicidal, insecure 'bout
My self
Yea, I'm a survival, mix liquor with them pills
She had me suicidal, insecure 'bout my feels
No, I'm not a survival, mix liquor with them pills
Mix liquor pills
Mix liquor with pills, pills