TVRZVN - Reality Lyrics

Lately I've been struggling with reality
Been Losing sleep, got no will to eat
Lately I've been grappling with mortality
No matter where I run
Death follows me
Loosing my grip
Starting to wonder what if
Do all actions have consequences
So easily predicted
Wet roads and high speeds
Send cars into palm trees
Loss of life on the count of three
One, two, three
One mile from home
Two seconds on the wrong side of the road
3am wake up call
Never felt so alone
Throw your phone against the wall
You don't care at all
There's no better way to end that call
Lately I've been struggling with reality
Been Losing sleep, got no will to eat
Lately I've been grappling with mortality
No matter where I run, death follows me
Brought up
To never fear death
All they'll get
Is this hollow shell left
Cleansed with the fire
Baptism
Holy pyre
Never felt calmer
Than when I was with ya
Still kiss your picture
Damn I miss ya
Been so long
So long so long
Since I was with ya
I mean really with ya
Used to stay up late
Just in case
Made sure I was safe but
Now you're gone
You're gone you're gone
And In this house
I'll never feel at home
Lately I've been questioning reality
Lately I've been testing mortality
Everywhere I turn, your ghost I see
Death swallows me
Death swallows me
Can't seem to separate
The grave
From the ground
Below me. Below me
Last night I tested mortality