Txmpo - session 1 Lyrics

They tell me, tempo, you're too lazy
Everybody's goin' through the same thing
I be sittin' tryin' to explain things but how can I explain
When I cannot even say things
Overwhelmed by the second, soaked in depression
I never ever wanna be a lesson
But my best is never good enough, I keep effin up
I never knew I had anxiety
Saw myself as little, but I'm mighty
I never knew what the feeling might be
I had to ignore it like my ig
Used to never take anything lightly
Now I'm people pleasing, so they like me
Damn, that aint even like me
Promise I would never wanna fight me
Damn, lover of piece
They say I miss the old you, the way that you speak
Used to never give a f*ck, impossible to reach
Now you hangin' with these kids and they abusing your peace
And you can't do nothin
Disrespect that you can't do nothin'
Ain't got no self-worth, cause you ain't grew nothin'
Feel you ain't worth shit, cause you ain't drop nothin'
108 gang, man, I miss my brothers
Damn man no one could've been above us
And I ain't even crock city reppin' no more
Moved to the capital, had to get more
Tellin' me, tempo, you ain't got no story
Tempo, you sounding like tory
Not enough to get on my stage
Now guess who's the god of performance
This year, man, I lost my faith
2018, I create a leap of faith
I was in church couldn't hold back tears
Thought I would never ever break down in public
What have I done to deserve this pain
Honestly eh, to me its just insane
Every day, every day, every day, every day
Lookin' for a piece of the peace every frickin' day
Battle scars on my left arm
Victorious, they callin' it self-harm
Grateful to everybody who stayed through this phase
Promise I'ma get back, give me a couple of days
I don't know years, I don't even care
These are my fears
I don been battling for so many years
Where is my peace
Everybody's leavin', I need me
Depression is really confusing
Everything I do seems to tell me more
Like its never gonna be okay
And you can't do it, and you're not capable and
, like, all of that, and I'm so paralyzed
Because as much as I might mentally know, like, as a human being
I have the capacity to get things done
I have the capacity, but I don't
And I, I just, I just crash and burn
I feel like I am failing everyone
Like, everything that happens is just another reminder
Of how I'm not enough, and I'm, like, f*cking everything up
And I know how it feels like
To not be able to think straight
Because I can tell you rationally that, like,
My mind is not working right
And it's frightening I know in my brain
I'm an intelligent, capable, creative, driven,
Passionate, responsible, great person
But then all this darkness hits
And it's like that's literally erased from my identity
In these hours or days or weeks
And it's probably confusing for people who are around me
And I don't know how to get out of this
I won't ever stop fighting
I won't ever stop figuring out a way through
And I've been in similar places before
And I know that it passes
I know that there's a way through it
But I also know that I can't think straight right now
And I have no idea what it looks like
And for anyone, I guess, who doesn't know
I just wanted to show you what depression looks like