txrrible fate - MPUNXH Lyrics

I can't deny that I've lost myself in my mind
Need some time
Need some space and time to feel right
When the plight in my head becomes my only option to socialize
Cause I'm mentally unorganized
Kill my habits but never apply all the strategies
That turn into tragedies
The apathy
I did it all by the means
But I have this travesty that's haunting me
It is on my sleeves
It's all over me
So I stay at home tactfully because I'm honestly drained
This is a cry for help yet I just complain
Screaming loud all in vain
No one hears me in my own domain
This is a place where I can stay

I watch the people passing by
I can't stand to see them smile
They all seem to have a reason
On their mission to get through life
Trying to be alright
Yet they're all so vile
Feels like they're all diseased
They're so easily amused
And I feel plain abused
And that's why I refuse
To go and leave my rooms
They make me feel confused
My sanity is bruised
Don't want to see the truth
Wish I would be like you but I'm not
They say that home is where the heart is
But my heart is where my home is
And it's empty like I like it
And it's tempting to despise it
When they like me I disguise
Flee from their sight or just advise them
That they better leave me alone