Why my parents gotta split apart
Why I'm 10 years old at the bar playin darts
Momma yellin at my dad when we come home its dark
Pops drownin in the booze thinks he swimming like a shark
As a father i don't see how you could drive around drunk
I ain't mad now but back then i sure as hell was
Momma split cause you were drinkin
Wouldn't show her no love
But she didn't try to help that's what really f*cked me up
You had a problem whether or not you wanna admit it
She prob'ly should have had your ass admitted
But instead she caught feelings for another mother f*cker
Now he tryna fill the shoes you couldn't fit in
Listen I thought familys supposed to stick together
Weather any storm be each others shelter
You dont just quit mom you try to do better
Let this shit fester this way too long read this f*cking letter
Dear mom, dad every family has problems
Everybodys done some shit that they're not proud of
You should have got your shit together when you had a child
Well he wasnt my father but yeah he held me down
I know it hurt when he couldnt see me smile
Good man took us in and then you went and threw him out
He never laid a f*cking hand on us should have helped him out
But you bounced like a ball kicked the man when he was down
Now I'm fatherless again feelin like a true bastard
My real dad left but you left the dad that mattered
Left me with Mommy issues feelin like mathers
Wear this nug on my chest because my heart feels shattered
In pieces I'm feeling my inner demon deceivin
Me angel was on my shoulder he left he takin a breather
The devil is on my right tellin me that I should just leave her
So she can't see her granddaughter would that make me as evil as her
Rip my new family apart for selfish reasons
I just cant do it feels like I'm commitin' treason
So I let her see my baby and my wife but I'm grieving cause to me
She still dead our relationship is in pieces
And inside I'm so conflicted am I addicted to hate
I can't change my position I been stuck for a minute
Like a car with with no engine starter or transmission
Am i a bitch for bitchin' about my issues
Cause listen my homie dont got his mom anymore
And and I'm here trippin about my mom thats still here
And even though we're real distant i can still see her face hear her voice when i visit
Am i bitch for just bitchin'
Am I a bitch for just bitchin'