Tyrell Sun - Surge Protector Lyrics

[Intro]
Numb to the pain, yeah
Can't let nobody in again, yeah
System overload, mind on hold

[Verse 1]
Watching Marcus fade away, that shit broke something in me
Now I'm living life behind these walls defensively
Mama said I was a fighter when I came out premature
But these days I'm just surviving, ain't sure what I'm fighting for
Cut off all connections, yeah, that's how I cope
Living in the darkness since my brother lost hope
Peckham streets are flickering, matching my state of mind
Power's running low but I'm still doing fine

[Chorus]
I built these walls up high, yeah
Don't want nobody getting close
My heart's on lockdown mode
Like circuit breakers when they blow
I'd rather feel nothing at all
Than watch another brother fall
These walls protect me, yeah
But they're killing me, that's facts, yeah

[Verse 2]
Late nights in the trap house, thinking 'bout the past
How many more brothers gotta breathe their last?
Therapy sessions got me feeling exposed
Voice notes full of pain that I never showed
System's breaking down, city's going dark
But the real blackout's happening in my heart
NA meetings echo in my f*cked up dreams
Hospital machines still haunting me, it seems

[Chorus]
I built these walls up high, yeah
Don't want nobody getting close
My heart's on lockdown mode
Like circuit breakers when they blow
I'd rather feel nothing at all
Than watch another brother fall
These walls protect me, yeah
But they're killing me, that's facts, yeah

[Outro]
Sometimes I wonder if Marcus knew
That shutting down was all I could do
Protection or destruction?
Man, I wish I f*cking knew
Yeah, I wish I knew...