Plan A (feat. Zahra Jay) Video (MV)

Imma hate myself in the AM
Staying up, getting out what I'm saying
No surface level shit, better wade in
I'm in too deep, I mean way in
My shoulders and the world gotta weigh in
I been fighting for my life and a way in
More than a product of the place I was made in
I'm proving to the people I ain't playin'

I might start going out my mind
If I keep staring out my window
Watch time keep passing me by
Feels like I'm living in limbo
I fear being left behind
After all I been through
But why life keeps giving me signs

Sometimes I just feel like, I need a high to feel alive
Took a while realize, real life, don't feel right
There's so much I'm tryna do, wanna be and have to say
Don't wanna rely on you, I'm gonna be my plan A

Ain't satisfied in the life I was born wit
A small, closed, or narrow mind, I'm beyond it
Want the world at my at my feet with this mic when I palm it
But these hands and grounds are shaky and I'm struggling to calm it
The journey to reaching my final form, I've prolonged it
With my own self doubts and overthoughts, I'll be honest
Started from the bottom, I refuse to end up on it
Wouldn't get enough for one of my gems if you pawned it
Goals worth more than gold in my mind
Got me digging deep to show the whole world they're all mine
Came a long way but feel I shoulda been nearer
Hindsight's 20/20, wishing my future was clearer
I got good memory of bad memories
The best should come to mind when it's time to remember me
This been my whole life for a quarter century
So how you think I'll feel to find out that this wasn't meant for me

I might start going out my mind
If I keep staring out my window
Watch time keep passing me by
Feels like I'm living in limbo
I fear being left behind
After all I been through
But why life keeps giving me signs

Sometimes I just feel like, I need a high to feel alive
Took a while realize, real life, don't feel right
There's so much I'm tryna do, wanna be and have to say
Don't wanna rely on you, I'm gonna be my plan A

If I can't do it don't know what imma do
Feel like a failure to the fam and I let down the crew
They either passive pay attention or supporting the mission
I just want them to be fans, not my friends when they listen
Dreams money can buy vs just getting by
Sounds like a nightmare to me, if I don't wake up I'll die
I'm not doing this to fail and say well at least I tried
That would be a lie, couldn't look myself in the eye

I might start going out my mind
If I keep staring out my window
Watch time keep passing me by
Feels like I'm living in limbo
I fear being left behind
After all I been through
But why life keeps giving me signs

Sometimes I just feel like, I need a high to feel alive
Took a while realize, real life, don't feel right
There's so much I'm tryna do, wanna be and have to say
Don't wanna rely on you, I'm gonna be my plan A