Unknownartists - My Mind Lyrics

I just said i wanna go Got into my car
I hit the accelerator really slow
Moving to the bar I park my car
I took my wallet Its an hour ago
Where am I now I don't really care
Guess what, I don't really know

Oops I am inn the bar
Sipping on the vodka
Drinking alcohol
In this broke glass
Why am i in this class
Why the teacher playing jazz
Brain is messing again huh
Go to doctors, get it checked
Or flirt with nurses and get...hmmm

Wait wasn't i locked up in my room for three days
Crying with my ugly face tired to run this life race
I am in broken phase like a Roller coaster in my brain
Like is this what they keep calling pain?
Is this really pain?

Look i really had to let you know
That iam not ok
Iam not doing fine or doing great
Iam just suffering everryday
Its my mental state
Am not lost, not too fast
Or my path i should find
Its my head in my mind

They call it disorders
I call them curse
They say live in reality
I live like a mess
I don't know what is real
I am always stressed
I don't know what to do
Rather than eating these meds
I like to go away for the moment
Somewhere I feel real
Somewhere I can see clear
Just to be lost in the woods
Rather in my mind
They look up like they care
Please don't act kind
My brain has lost control
Tried to drive it positive
It doesn't listen to me
It just goes opposite
Yea its negative
And yea of course its killing me
But i just let it be
Let it be, let it kill me
I don't care any more
Do you care thou?
No right? So just let me go
Its my mental state
Am not lost, not too fast
Or my path i should find
Its my head in my mind