Vacant Territory - To the Past, Present, and Future (I'm So Scared) Lyrics

I'm so scared
That I will forget
Even if what I have left is
Excruciating
I'm so scared
Of being quite forgotten
Pull me apart like cotton
If I'm rotten
I'm so scared
Of bleeding on these tiles
And for a little while
I'll fake a smile
And I'm so scared
That I've shattered all your bones
And tore you from your home
I'll end up alone
She said, "you're manipulative
And can't take a f*cking joke
And everytime I try to talk
It goes up in smoke"
"I've played your game
It wasn't just a ploy
But you can't understand why you're broken
And I won't be your toy"
I'm so scared
That the holes in my armor
Just keep getting larger
Than they were
I'm so scared
That you were right about me
If nothing left is easy
What's the point
I'm so scared
That the monsters will freely take me
And I'll be bloodied, shaking
On the floor
I'm so scared
That the quiet will eat my mind up
And my voice will be tied up
Disrepair
She said, "you're a little boy
Who can't take a f*cking joke
And everytime you try to talk
You make me wish I'd croak"
"I've slept on pain
It wasn't just a ploy
But we can't fix each other while broken
And I won't be your toy"
I'm so scared