Vera Revive - Grief Lyrics

It's time I make this black and white, can't stand to live another night
I found myself with no where to go in this broken place I call a home
There's more to this in life, turns out it's just a f*cking lie
Why does it feel like nothing's the same, no one to tell me it's okay
I can't stand to blame myself for all the emptiness
Just so you know that I'm alone inside, I don't have a lot to live for
I can't count all the times I wanted to take my life
It's all an act
While I wear this mask over my head
With all the places that I've been that led me here, I'm not okay
I tried to reach out on the top of my lungs but there's no way out
No one ever stops to think that people like me are contemplating
How can I bare to feel okay when I know its hopeless
Why do I try to care, when it's my heart that's missing
Why should I speak about the things that f*cking haunt me
When there's no love, no joy in this war inside my head
Can't help but lay down in this bed
Say my goodbyes and end it
Tell me the last thing that you said
Do you regret the words you meant
It's all an act.
While I wear this mask over my head
With all the places that I've been that led me here, I'm not okay
I tried to reach out on the top of my lungs but there's no way out
No one ever stops to think that people like me are contemplating
Its time I made this black and white
The truth is I've been so f*cking blind
To say the least I'd rather die
Then to make myself believe that people like me have happy endings