It sets in
A flash of heat
My burning feet
And I run
To the sink
Before I faint
This is the third time this week
And I feel so close to death
With all my hopes and regrets
Laid out one by one
And I'm getting tired of this
Uncertainty when I hit
It's like a flash
A spark
Shot in the dark
I only see stars
It happens over and over again
You'd think I'd take the hint
You'd think I'd be better for it
But
It's like I'm sinking under water
With my feet on the ground
It's like I'm choking on nothing
But I can't make a sound
It's like a rush I don't think will ever end
My heart is racing and it's only just begun
I'm taking steps
I'm learning to better myself
Instead of hurting just for the thrill
I never felt so full
I never felt so capable
I always felt so miserable
And I'd never make the call
Because
(Only just begun
It's only just begun)
I feel alive
When I close my eyes
Just to pass time