Vicky-D - Furnace of Fear Lyrics

My thoughts are wild like me
My fear cripples me
From reaching out
To explain my brain waves
That exist amidst heartache
Is like finding a way to get past
Security during a jail break
I'm stuck inside my own mind
Lucky you if you've found a way inside
Even luckier if you've stayed
The feeling loneliness
I'm tryna break away
But all these changes have me surfacing
More issues
The more I hurt, the less reach, out
Im filled with stress a large amount
All these worries I can't count
I just wanna let go
But when I do I get the next blow
It never stops
I need to re-attach to my life source
I know he's here
I know temptation surfaces
When I do not draw near
And I can't poor unless I'm filled
And I'm empty to make it clear

I've been thinking bout times that I've spent with you
Ask myself where you've been and why you had to go
Sometimes I really feel like I am alone
I've been thinking bout times that I've spent with you
Ask myself where you've been and why you had to go
Sometimes I really feel like I am alone

I need some time to myself
To take care of spiritual health
Man take me back to the beginning
I need a drink of milk
I need to rebuild my strength
In my weakness I am rebuilt
But I need to let you build me up
I'm falling with jack and Jill
I need to let you help me up
I'm tryna crawl up the hill
I need to let you hold my hand
So that I can feel whole again
I'm scared to go to all my friends
Even though I know I can trust them
I still question if they're safe
And at this rate
And I don't wanna over reach
Or cross boundaries
So it's harder for me to go
To those surrounding me
It's not you but it's me
Don't take it personally
I got a smile on my face
In my brain a cross country race
It never stops, it replays everything
Every wrong, every wonder what they think, are they mad, are they sad
What'd I say, did I say the wrong thing
Where'd they go, will they leave, are they gone
Are they ever coming back for me
I see nothing, no one, my fear is clear
I know God is near
I hear his whisperer
But why can't I draw near
God expel the fog so peace can once again be clear
You've done it before, you'll do it again
I'm not giving up
I'm ready for you to make my soul erupt
You came from your place
To be in my space
I'm the 1 sheep that you chasing
And it's amazing
That you not tired
Chasing me through the valley
Of shadow a death
So I'm not alone
Whenever I Rome
Jesus walk next to me
So that I'm home
Got me covered like a lawyer
So that I don't in the fire
So I can walk out of the furnace of fear
And still be on fire for ya