I hope I don't have to wake up
I don't want to deal with this pain
I cover my face with sheets
The sobbing I've muffled again
I'm sitting at the end of my bed
I cover my face from the day
I cry after every phone call
Takes a while just to feel okay
Fantasizing of conversations
So many plans we had lined up
I know I'll dream of you tonight
Frightened of new sensations.
I had to call in sick
Just to get a break
Can you find my body
Frozen at the bottom of a lake
No one can help
Feel its far too late
Holding onto feelings
But i fear its far too late
Funny smart handsome
Every compliment the same
Just something to say
Trying to dull the pain
What's worse than being wrong?
When all my fears are right