I'm tired
Not bone-tired but soul tired
My heart aches and shudders in my rib cage
And everyday melts into the third
So it's like every day repeats
And I've been in this cycle a while
Heartache and heartbreak
Followed by "be strong" told it's not the end of the world and "don't worry, you're still young"
As if my age had anything to do about it
As if my age had anything to do
With my heart fragmenting into so many more pieces than two
And when my heart forgets how to work in my chest
And sends tremors of sadness through my person
I find my headphones and music which mirrors these emotions;
In those moments too loud isn't loud enough
Searching through catalogues of voices
And an array of symphonies
Not to feel more sadness
But to try and prove that I am not alone
And that my sanity has not left me
Because if at least one other person
Can put these feelings - that throw my heartbeat into a tantrum - into words
Then maybe
Just maybe
Someone else has a cure
A way to remove this stone in my chest
And to finally inhale and not hurt because
I'm tired of feeling such a depth of melancholy
For no apparent reason
Simply a Poet