Vjdamusicman - Never Thought I'd Lose You Lyrics

I spent years convincing myself that I was insane
Until I woke up to being a pawn in your game
I wanted to people please until I saw the golden gates
Confusing heaven for hell, or maybe it was just my fate
Unbelievable how I mistook your company for misery, or maybe I'm just misreading the situation
It wouldn't be the first time that I let a person control my self-hatred and call it their f*cking intuition

Nobody's here to watch me fall
I shouldn't be here anymore

You fight with your might might might
And you might just get your way
I try with a helping hand but you bite the hand that feeds
There's no way out of this tunnel you built
You might have to get over it

Never thought I'd lose you
Lose
Never thought I'd lose you
Lose

Seeing you clearer than I've ever seen you before
Maybe it's cause instead of wanting less I'm craving more
My food isn't piling up cause I'm dealing with my feelings
And people they call me skinny, the hate I've lost is healing
No, no wait revealing, my, my weight is peeling
I'm no, no longer grieving, the friendships I lost for reasons
You came here for several seasons, but the writers room is scrambling
Strike all the pins I'm winning, egg on your face for gambling

Nobody's here to watch me fall
I shouldn't be here anymore

You fight with your might might might
And you might just get your way
I try with a helping hand but you bite the hand that feeds
There's no way out of this tunnel you built
You might have to get over it

Never thought I'd lose you
Lose
Never thought I'd lose you
Lose

You fight with your might might might
And you might just get your way
I try with a helping hand but you bite the hand that fades
There's no way out of this tunnel you built
You might have to get over it

You fight with your might might might
And you might just get your way
I try with a helping hand but you bite the hand that feeds
There's no way out of this tunnel you built
You might have to get over it

Never thought I'd lose you
Lose
Never thought I'd lose you
Lose

And you know sometimes
Sometimes we think things
And life throws us curveballs
Cause that's just how that shit works