PTSD Video (MV)

I be smilin' way too much when I'm in public
But that's how I cope with the pain, so **** it
Used to have hope, but that changed, now I'm wonderin'
Do you really love me like you say?
If you don't, that's okay, just don't lie to me
That wouldn't even be a surprise to me, no
Huh, huh, yeah, this is what it look like with my guard up, ayy
Phone full of numbers I should probably call up
I tend to change the subject every time it's brought up, ayy
Wonder what it feel like when it's all love, ayy
But then they remind me why I put them walls up, uh
When I feel uncomfortable, I can't let them see me being vulnerable
I would rather die alone than let them bleed me dry, no

Nowadays, I don't believe you love me like you say
I notice you ain't solid as you say
Notice how my circle changing to another shape, ayy
PTSD hittin' hard, I feel betrayed
PTSD make it hard to be okay, ayy
PTSD tellin' me to get away, ayy
PTSD show me how to deal with pain
Huh, huh, yeah

Think I lost it, shawty on my leg, she tryna play
Feelin' nauseous, GG 80 proof up in my veins
Too much talkin', rather ride the whip, I'm switchin' lanes
All this damage to my body for your love is killin' me
PTSD, you feelin' nice, babe
Recuperate my soul, this drama is gettin' old to me

Nowadays, I don't believe you love me like you say
I notice you ain't solid as you say
Notice how my circle changing to another shape, ayy
PTSD hittin' hard, I feel betrayed
PTSD make it hard to be okay, ayy
PTSD tellin' me to get away, ayy
PTSD show me how to deal with pain