I landed here with nothing G I gotta loot
Michelle Obama becoming is more than just a mood
I took my shit and I flipped it like I always do
My momma prolly raised a psycho but not a fool
Secretes I held in my heart, harder to hide than I thought
Ethan died and left the strings of my life in a knot
Our past can hard visit, but I haven't forgot
I put this shit all down picked up a concrete job
Tough work, I needed something I could bleed doing
Getting mail from my publisher they need recouping
Working Five to five, then I shower, then I ski up, then I'm nipping
Never had a hero I was always my own villain
On a self induced lock out
Niggas go to school for free and still drop out
Calluses on my hands, I'm outing blunts in my palm now
Begging you to please keep counting me out
Yeah
Not the man that I was when I was skipping steps
Living so below my means I've been collecting checks
Read and react like Leonard I got a new prospect
I could come at your neck n still compete with respect
Talking straight I hope that what I share releases my hate
Forgiving E for the carelessness that took him away
I forgive you for the suits on your mans in your late
Jahron was young in the game and had a lot on his plates
My big brother was Desirae's brother
A true leader who Nick nursed, developed and who made others
Never got to see his team win in six for a ring in the summer
I pray that jits see who they'll up and leave when they're downing their uppers
We lose sight of who's counting on us to be there
Alive and well by our sides for us to see clear
Nobody wants to live in fear that you'll disappear
3 year plus type friends are getting too rare
I see my girl in tears not for what I did
She wants her father off the cigs to get to meet our kids
I know she knows that addiction's doing the devils bids
And that we need to have the confidence to shoot even when we miss
That's it