Walter Hartwell - Autopilot Lyrics

Still get up Yeah, I still get up
Set the alarm Brush my teeth
Stare into the mirror like I'm trying to find the man that died when she left
Yeah, but I still tie my shoes Still take the same roads
Past the same gas station Where we used to laugh about dumb shit
Like car air fresheners that smelled like lies
Still show up Smile like a liar
Say I'm good Like it's not a f*cking crime scene in my chest
Yeah, still say I'm fine Even when the air's too loud
Even when I look at my phone Knowing there's nothing from her
Not anymore Still say I'm fine
Even when the air's too loud Even when I look at my phone
Knowing there's nothing from her
Not anymore
I go to work
I eat
I talk
I nod
I breathe
But I gave up
On the day her name became something I whisper
Instead of say
I remember how her laugh used to fill a room
Like light
Leaking through a crack in the dark
Now it's just quiet
I still go through the motions
But I left with her
Whatever's walking around in my skin now ain't me
It's a shell built on caffeine Fake smiles and muscle memory
Still say I'm fine Even when the air's too loud
Even when I look at my phone Knowing there's nothing from her
Not anymore I go to work
I eat I talk
I nod I breathe
But I gave up On the day her name became something I whisper
Instead of say
I move because the world expects movement I speak
Because silence makes people uncomfortable I live because dying felt too obvious
But I haven't really been alive Since the day she said goodbye
Without making a sound I still get up
Every day But the truth
The real guttural truth I gave up the moment she was gone
Still get up Every day
But the truth The real guttural truth
I gave up the moment she was gone
I gave up the moment she was gone