Watch Party - Mask Lyrics

I feel
My skin stretching
It's weighing me down and I feel laughed at
I feel monstrous
I can tell I've back tracked
I can't get it back now that I've lost it
Self confidence turns to consciousness
Don't make me look at myself
I hate the figure looking back
To me I look like a monster
Frankenstein, Pennywise
I feel like I'm wearing a mask
I don't remember my face
I don't remember my chest
This all looks new
Why can't I see the boy I grew up as?
Why do I feel like I've given up on you?
Just after I could bare my face
I let others see what I had been hiding
Now no one brave enough to even give an embrace
I hate myself
I tug on my shirt to cover what I felt
To be too fat
Too unbearable
To even exist in the same body as that
Laughed at
For wearing baggy clothes
Scorching weather
Unbearable
I pray to sweat to release all the poison that is my body
I wear a mask
I hide my face in my hair
To avoid their reactions
I wear a mask